They say you wouldn't come back ever. They say you've left us. Whom gods love, die young and all such sort of things.
Well you do know that I don't believe in all this. I have been saying these to people but it's hard Salma. Somedays, I feel you're playing a prank. That you will be back with me soon, skyping, commenting on my facebook status, messaging me, gossiping. The initial 15 days were tough to live, I shouted on top of my voice, Salma..Salma..No one answered. Later on, I realized that you did. Only that I couldn't hear then.
You have been working wonders for me. Yes, Salma, March 2013 has been the best month ever. I know you have been somehow sending me your love. I am receiving it. Every time I have a question, I close my eyes and ask, "what should I do Salma?" and you answer me right then. How did you know what I need? You have been making my birthday month the best. The loveliest of all. The way this month started, I blushed with happiness :) You know all the stories, I don't need to tell you. Right?
The theme of this month will be of course, Yellow. Your favorite. The way you used to say, "Yellow will bring an amazing fellow!" My wardrobe will be covered with shades of yellow, Mummy too sent me yellow dress as a birthday gift!
An year back,
around the same time.. I went to the Hampshire mall with you to buy heels for my birthday party.
"Well, these are amazing, but way too expensive Salma. Let's go home."
After I went home, you know what happened. I craved for the same. All night dreaming how I would look like in them. Usual reaction~" Salma. let's go tomorrow and buy them."
"Alright Nish, as you say." (By the way, I preferred only you calling me Nish)
Next day, at the Mall,
"I like the black ones as well the pink ones too, which one should I pick?"
"get both of them."
"Are you crazy? nope nope."
She went to try on something else while I was busy deciding.
After a moment,
"I got them both for you as your birthday present. Now don't ask for anything." (*wink*)
Huggsss her.
She was my sister, more than a sister perhaps. Writing notes on our dining table everyday. "take care Nish.. Love you"
She has been whispering this in my ears these days.
Otherwise, I wonder if there's any other reason that this birthday month had a great start, and it's getting better and better.
The reason must be you, yes Salma you :)
This is our first picture together, in Boston, near the Charles river. You renamed it from some .jpeg to strangers hahaha.jpeg. It is still with the same name. I am never going to change it. Nor this, neither your favorite Clam Chowder. You will be always with me. With your thousands of pictures and memories.
By the way, you have got a lot of letters from people around the world. I am going to compile it soon and send it.
Love
~Nishpriha
Well you do know that I don't believe in all this. I have been saying these to people but it's hard Salma. Somedays, I feel you're playing a prank. That you will be back with me soon, skyping, commenting on my facebook status, messaging me, gossiping. The initial 15 days were tough to live, I shouted on top of my voice, Salma..Salma..No one answered. Later on, I realized that you did. Only that I couldn't hear then.
You have been working wonders for me. Yes, Salma, March 2013 has been the best month ever. I know you have been somehow sending me your love. I am receiving it. Every time I have a question, I close my eyes and ask, "what should I do Salma?" and you answer me right then. How did you know what I need? You have been making my birthday month the best. The loveliest of all. The way this month started, I blushed with happiness :) You know all the stories, I don't need to tell you. Right?
The theme of this month will be of course, Yellow. Your favorite. The way you used to say, "Yellow will bring an amazing fellow!" My wardrobe will be covered with shades of yellow, Mummy too sent me yellow dress as a birthday gift!
An year back,
around the same time.. I went to the Hampshire mall with you to buy heels for my birthday party.
"Well, these are amazing, but way too expensive Salma. Let's go home."
After I went home, you know what happened. I craved for the same. All night dreaming how I would look like in them. Usual reaction~" Salma. let's go tomorrow and buy them."
"Alright Nish, as you say." (By the way, I preferred only you calling me Nish)
Next day, at the Mall,
"I like the black ones as well the pink ones too, which one should I pick?"
"get both of them."
"Are you crazy? nope nope."
She went to try on something else while I was busy deciding.
After a moment,
"I got them both for you as your birthday present. Now don't ask for anything." (*wink*)
Huggsss her.
She was my sister, more than a sister perhaps. Writing notes on our dining table everyday. "take care Nish.. Love you"
She has been whispering this in my ears these days.
Otherwise, I wonder if there's any other reason that this birthday month had a great start, and it's getting better and better.
The reason must be you, yes Salma you :)
This is our first picture together, in Boston, near the Charles river. You renamed it from some .jpeg to strangers hahaha.jpeg. It is still with the same name. I am never going to change it. Nor this, neither your favorite Clam Chowder. You will be always with me. With your thousands of pictures and memories.
By the way, you have got a lot of letters from people around the world. I am going to compile it soon and send it.
Love
~Nishpriha
Salma had one of the brightest and biggest personalities of anyone I ever knew. There is no one quite like her, she made the world a better place.
ReplyDeleteYes Josh, she was such a wonderful person. I miss the wonderful times we had, especially the quincy market, boston museum of science. Missing all the crazy times together!
ReplyDeleteI cried reading it! So touching! May Gob be with both of you and your families!
ReplyDeleteSpecial people leave positive marks in our lives. Salma and you are more than special!
Mariana
Thank you Mariana! That's so very kind of you. She's happy, seeing amazing people like you, blessing her soul and writing letters for her family.
ReplyDeleteIt's a very touching letter! I cried reading it! I didn't have the chance to know her but I loved her through your words. May Allah bless her soul.
ReplyDeleteThe people we love never leave us, they live inside of us.
Nadia
Thank you Nadia! It's very rare that people can feel the similar pain..I am touched by your message. Lots of love!
ReplyDeleteIts a friendship that will never die. Thank you for sharing this with us! I can't agree more on how she was a great person .I miss her so much and miss how strong she used to be.
ReplyDeleteYes Nadia, relationships never die. They live within us, with us. She used to tell me a lot about you, like she would say, " I had such a great time in Arizona because of Nadia. She's a sweetheart!" :)
ReplyDeleteOf all your blog entries, why hadn't i read this?..it's heart wrenching. From what little interaction i had with you, i could never have imagined that you had gone through something like this.I may not have known this wonderful person at all but what i am feeling right now is only due to the simplicity and depth of your words ...And this explains your yellow dress that day.
ReplyDeleteOh yes, now I remember that I wore yellow that day! That was March, Mine and Salma's birthday month :) That's why.
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